February 2012
1 post
you can’t give what you dont have.
January 2012
4 posts
Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
This week’s been physically draining. Period. No joke. Lets see. Beginning from Saturday, the boiler at home’s been broken until today. That’s 5 WHOLE days without a shower at home. So what does that mean? Meaning, showering @ church either waking up early to go, or staying up late (gotta pick my bro after work = 12am) then shower. Then going to schoool, homework, blahblahblah....
there are friends.
Then there are the true friends. They dont judge me, love my flaws, make me laugh and laugh with me, hug me in good times and bad, cry with me, sing with me, walk with me, grow together in the Lord, endure the most painful times together, say what they mean and mean what they say, share their blessings, warm my heart, give me reality checks, support me, encourage me, despite...
mumble jumble
Everything’s different now. No doubt about that. Do i miss the past? A part of me does, yes. Was it my fault that i began distancing myself to a point that now there’s like a ‘strangers vibe’? Perhaps. But, can’t blame me. I was just tired of it. Didnt seem like you tried either so…. =\
On another note… I’m leading worship for the first time this...
December 2011
2 posts
your words mean nothing to me now.
my hopes were high, but once again, i’m left here utterly disappointed.
i guess i was right. i feel like i dont know you anymore and that our friendship only lie within the four corners of msn chat. We’ve become so distant in person now.. and even so, when u see me, i feel like i’m being treated like crap. =\ Ya, i dont mind being made fun of/ being joked around, but u’re taking it wayy to far… Enough is enough. You should tell by my body...
November 2011
3 posts
money doesnt bring happiness. but it kinda helps.
This subject makes me depressed. I’m frustrated at how the money i earn at two jobs right now goes straight to tuition. Constantly saving and hardly pampering myself. I wont lie, i envy those that have tuition paid for them. The things i wanna do with my money instead of tuition: buy a camera, bless my parents and friends. My sony one has lasted me 4 years through highlights and abuses. But,...
a little me time.
i’ve realized… Doesnt what kinda relationship you’re in whether it’s friendship or a relationship, having one person putting all the effort just doesn’t work. It’s not balanced. And sooner or later, that person will tire out. Tbh, that’s what i’m feeling right now. I think God’s trying to show that He’s trying to reach out to me too, but...
Thinking bout you
Can’t get this song outta my head.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chx7jof1Uog
Got so many things on my mind, once again.
October 2011
5 posts
great.
friend zone. boo. not gonna lie, bit sad. but what can i do. not like anything was gonna happen from the beginning anyways right?
boo.
why is it that i can never have what i want. i swear man.. it seems like i have the worst luck when it comes to these things. Why :(
i hate being like this
tehee.
ohman. cant stop thinking bout you. LOL.
future.
whats on mind right now? the future. i’m really excited for it, for some reason. i cant wait to meet my husband. LOL :$ i cant wait to wake up everyday to the person i love the most! it’s so exciting! dont you think? or am i the only one that’s getting too excited? HAHAH. i know someone reading this might be like ready to slap me the next day she reads this. :P EHEHHE.
September 2011
3 posts
boo.
this change sucks. i dont like it at all. :(
Farewell.
=’(
cchhchange..
change. change is good right? Right…? So i guess i’ll say my goodbye now.
August 2011
5 posts
i'm...
afraid. there. i said it. happy? i’m afraid that this friendship will fade come the months ahead. But i surely hope not.
its so hard
to hold back the tears that are dripping endlessly.
an 18 yr old can only handle so much
i’m still young. i dont have the ability to bare so much weight. I can only handle so much. Seriously. Please.
There’s a difference between knowing of it and truly understand the principle. You say you know, but honestly, you’re not applying it in your life. Meanwhile, you’re just adding more burden to yourself and everyone else around you.
Miracle
Impossible. That word does not exist in Your dictionary.
Hate the feeling of being disappointed in yourself. You know you can do better yet, the results show otherwise. I know I cant do this on my own. Its evident right now. I need for You to show me the impossible turn into possible. Please.
A layered mask
Today was a not so good day. It was so difficult to put a smile on my face. My spirit was so broken down. Havent felt this way in a while. I wanted to be alone. I wanted to be hidden from the world.
I may put a bubbly front but inside, i’m dry. I’m tired. I’m unsatisfied. There’s a longing for a greater love from You, yet I have not been doing my part. Why is it that the...
July 2011
5 posts
There are some people that you naturally like to hang out more with/hang out around. Something about their aura and you are one of them :D
:)
The breeze blowing so gently. The kiss of the sun against my skin. The view of a thousand dollars. What more can i ask for? :) Just wanna stay @ kits beach. July 23, ty for blessing me with such a gorgeous day. Couldnt ask for more
its true,
actions speak louder than words
unbearable pain
nothing hurts more than the words you say.
these painful scars, what do i do?
5 things that annoy me
1. Empty promises. If you can’t keep your promise, dont friggin make it. Simple as that.
2. When parents come into my room in the morning, and dont close the door after they leave. SOOOOOO annoying.
3. When people dont have a backbone. Stop being a push-over. Stand up for yourself.
4. Self-pity. Hate that. Stop sitting around and doing nothing. Crying won’t solve anything. Get it...
June 2011
3 posts
Bare with me
I’m trying to get used to this. :)
November 2010
1 post
One year
Oh my it’s been a yr since I’ve updated my tumblr!! Seeing my last post.. I’ve realized I’ve gotten many things that I wanted… Cellphone.. Cardigan … Black vneck.. And now this itoouchh that I didn’t expect at all!! Anyways I feel so blessed. Xx JJ
BIRTHDAY WISH! :)
woooooooooooooooo, 4 days till my 17th birthday :) excited.
here’s my bday wishlist:
(from most affordable to not so affordable. hahaha)
320 GIG HARD DISK. i can literally sense my current laptop dying. too many pics.. need somewhere else to store it.
CELLPHONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
hair dye (blond, cos it’ll turn out brown anyways)
5000 piece puzzle!
jeans/cardigan etcetc
...
September 2009
1 post
January 2009
3 posts
BLOG IT.
http://jayj4yy.blogspot.com/
renewed
gosh, it’s only the beginning of 2009 and i’m already feeling drained out. emotionally and physically. i guess the physical part is due to the lack of sleep during my winter holiday. LOL, i guess i’m the one to blame.. too bad! i was trying to enjoy every single minute of it by sleeping at like 3 am. hahha. emotionally is just from school i guess. friends mostly. it’s hard...
happy 2009
reminder: visit : http://www.flickr.com/photos/jayjayy/
comment comment comment on my pics please! :)
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2009 baby. is gonna be a great year. i know so. why shall i make a new years resolution when i aint gonna even achieve it eh? so, lets not waste my time.. lmao! it’ll just make me disappointed cos i’ll be like, oh darn, i didnt complete that task!....
December 2008
5 posts
christmas wishlist...
santa, i hope u read this :)
* i’ve been a super good girl this year!!!
Christmas Wishlist…
new shoes..(not converse)
ceramic hair straightener
Flash for my Ebi
Tripod for my Ebi
jeans x3
t-shirts
zoo york hoddies .. PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE..
(8) all i want for christmas is… you.
to find my fav pencil.. :(
eyeliner
chap stick - lips so dry!
sushi buffet!!!!!!...
November 2008
10 posts
I MISSED IT.
OH NO!! :(
today, just as i was leaving for history lesson.. i looked up and the sky was soooo gorgeous.. the clouds were like.. WOW. jaw dropping
but then, i didnt have enough time to take my camera and snap a few pics :(
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. i’m so sad and pissed and then by the time history lesson was over (1 hour later) … it was WAYY to dark and all the clouds...
