a little me time.

i’ve realized… Doesnt what kinda relationship you’re in whether it’s friendship or a relationship, having one person putting all the effort just doesn’t work. It’s not balanced. And sooner or later, that person will tire out. Tbh, that’s what i’m feeling right now. I think God’s trying to show that He’s trying to reach out to me too, but i havent responded to him, just like this other person isn’t responding to me (if that even made sense to you). Meanwhile, this earthy relationship that i’m pursuing is tough. Like I said, me putting the effort is tiring me out. I’m spending way too much time being infatuated of the “idea” of him, instead of how this individual truly is. Maybe i should take my focus off of him and onto God. It’s going to be difficult. // It’s funny how i give relationship advice to my other friends and the stuff i say totally applies to my current situation, but i dont even follow it. How sad.