just for a sp/it second

This subject makes me depressed. I’m frustrated at how the money i earn at two jobs right now goes straight to tuition. Constantly saving and hardly pampering myself. I wont lie, i envy those that have tuition paid for them. The things i wanna do with my money instead of tuition: buy a camera, bless my parents and friends. My sony one has lasted me 4 years through highlights and abuses. But, if i really want to go further with my passion, i really need to upgrade. I dont want to upgrade to another amateur level camera, but one that’s better. (I’m getting off topic, oh no. lets go back on topic). I’m so stressed out when i see my bank account plunge after paying for tuition. It takes me awhile to get it back up again and next thing you know, it plunges again. Knowing what my parents are going through, i’d hate to even ask them for help. However, God’s been helping me through, that’s for sure. On another note, it infuriates me to people take money for granted and spending it carelessly as if one hundred dollars was equivalent to a dollar.  If only they knew how hard it takes to earn like couple hundred dollars. If only…