just for a sp/it second

Today was a not so good day. It was so difficult to put a smile on my face. My spirit was so broken down. Havent felt this way in a while. I wanted to be alone. I wanted to be hidden from the world.

I may put a bubbly front but inside, i’m dry. I’m tired. I’m unsatisfied. There’s a longing for a greater love from You, yet I have not been doing my part. Why is it that the things of this world constantly keeps me away from You. I’m unworthy of Your love. Ashamed, is my current state. I don’t do the things that I should be doing to draw myself closer to You. I dont deserve your blessings. It should go to those that are absolutely hungry for you. Forgive me for I know not what I’m doing. 

I need a break. Please get me outta here.